Keyra Mansor

Eyh2!!!

my sis is opening a bussiness with her friends...

it's a bridal boutique together with catering and all that jazz.

check it out!

www.keyramansor.com

i like this one..but i like that one too?

I like this...thing...but i also like the other thing...confusing?

ok..for easier way to translate..

i like my sony w980..but i've always like my nokia's 5300..

i like both of them very much...but i can't use both everytime...

i want to let go of my nokia...but i don't have the courage...it have always been a good friend to me...

but i also like my sony...it gave so much to me...anything and everything that i ever wanted..for a phone..i mean,it gave a lot better than my nokia...but somehow..i always like my nokia..

what should i do??

i can't have them both at the same time!it's not....acceptable...

but i cant let go of my sony...nor can i forget about my nokia...

hurm...i'm confused...i reaaaaallllllyyyy dont know what i should do..

how??

p/s..in real life..it's not really about the phone..

confused,mixed up....dream??

haven't been blogging for a long time..
been busy lately..

anyway, got some story to share.

first, i'm finishing my practical session at Tawakal Hospital for the second time.. I love working here..it's fun! haha.. Now i sounded like a workaholic..

Anyway, i'm having the time of my life with my best friends..

But always falling sick lately..

Viral fever, headache,faint,conjunctivitis,allergy reactions...

too much! i hate being sick..i know there's nothing i can to do change it..but i still hate it..

there's not much u can do when you're sick..

like right now..i'm on my medical leave for 3 days..and i have nothing to do..

however, i'm glad i'm alive and able to do so much things that some others can't do..

Secondly, i'm always confused with my self..i don't know what to be...i don't know how to behave..

i'm different with others as i'm with my family or on my own..

but i can never know how to be every part of me..

sometimes i think..maybe i will never be, who i was before..

maybe i don't know her anymore..maybe who i am today,ain't so far from yesterday..

can i ever find a way to be..every part of me?

but i know,my true friends,will always be by my side..no matter how i am..

because true friend,accept you as you are..

i like to dream..wonderful dreams..romantic dreams..like these words..to dream

"Do me a favor,

And tell me what you think about me

Paint a picture

Choose your colors extra wise

Especially what you put on my mind

Imagine what it be like to touch the sky,

Whoa, you got my head in the clouds

Whoa, you got me thinking out loud

The more you dream about me the more that I believe

That nothing’s ever out of reach

So dream, dream, dream

I breathe your visions

They pull me through the coldest of nights

They steer me towards that moment in time

When you show me what it means for you to be mine, yeah"

part of the words anyway..

u know what?life is full of dreams...that's where everything started..

and maybe,without a dream,i wont be where i am today...

but sometimes people told me,it's easier to just listen and follow your heart..and u'll be okay..

but sometimes,listening to ur heart, could break u apart..not knowing which way to follow..

and it's so confusing,complicated,frustrating and sometimes makes me angry with myself..

all these makes me more mixed up..and leaving me with more doubt..

everything i do,is making me more confused...

used to be easy..all i have to be was me..

everywhere i go, is somewhere that i dont know..

ouh i hate this feelings..please somebody help me...

hold me,tell me,everything gonna be okay..

please...somebody...

feeling....idontknow?

i dont know..what certain peoples' problems are...

i dont know..what people think of me...

i dont know..if i can make it through this time in college..

i dont know..if i can hold back my anger to certain people..

i dont know..if i can be patience all the time..

i dont know..what the future may brings..

i dont know..if i can smile all day..

i dont know..if i can laugh all day..

i dont know..if i can stay this way..

i dont know..if i can tell everyone the real truth..

i dont know..how to face this world..alone..

there are many things that i dont know..that i'm not sure of..

but some of it i found out with the help of my friends..my family...

but most of it..i have to find out on my own..

how do i do that?but still have a smile on face, a laugh in my life...and a dream in my future?

how?how ?

how to tell people...to let go?

how to say..thank you in the most sincerest way?

how to say.... goodbye?

i dont like being an outcast..

i dont like being alone...

i dont like being left alone..

but sometimes...that helps prepare others when i wont be here any longer..

somehow...it helps me living without others...

is that how this is all supposed to be?supposed to end?

I DONT KNOW..

Life

What is the real reason we live? To fulfill our dreams and fill our life with good things..

To do wrong things,to make mistakes...and learn from them...

To find our way out through problems...to make others laugh with us...

Why do we need friends? Because we can't stand alone in this world..

That's why we rely on others... That's why we need others to survived..

We cannot face the challenges alone.. Who's gonna help us if we fall down... If we're at our lowest point? Who's gonna be there to share our joy and laugh with us when we're at our happiest moment?

In this life..we need to give and take..

We cannot expect others to listen to us all the time..

But we must stand up for what we believe for...if the time and place is suitable..

We have to sometimes let go and listen to others...follow other people ideas..

I know, at times, we think our ideas is the best...

But our views are not the same...

So learn to give and take...

Because sometimes...it's not our satisfaction that's important...

It's the satisfaction of others towards what we do for them...

So, to all of you..learn to tolerate others...and they will tolerate you...

Learn to respect others...and they will learn to respect you...

Learn to appreciate others...and they will appreciate you...

Learn to live with others...and they will certainly adapt to live with you...

SADSADSADSADSADSAD!!!!!

I'm terribly sad and devastated..My beloved rabbit..had died...NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was bitten by 2 stray dogs which managed to enter the garden yesterday morning..

Dafy must have been terrified! It's a good rabbit.. Very..happy i can say..

It goes anywhere it wants to go..and return home at night..every night..

It can be friends with cats, chickens..and who knows what other animals did it became friends with... Dafy,i miss you!! I'm sorry i came back late from college or else i might get to see you again.

The last time i met you was last week..before i go back to college..

you were so adorable, even though you are covered with dirts..

I'm gonna miss seeing you hope around...running around the garden to catch you...

I remembered it took 3 people just to catch you..because you ran so fast...you hop so high..

Dafy..i will always,always,always...remember you..

in loving memory..220607 - 280809

how smal...and cute..and CLEAN you were...

you grew bigger...130408

....and dirtier..haha

..and 2 weeks before u "went away"...

Dafy...i miss you...

22nd june 2007 - 28th august 2009

today...

I was damn frustrated that i didn't get to go out today..i hate it..

my father won't allow me to go out inpublic..due to these epidemic H1N1..

Damn those swine flu..i was really looking forward to go out today..i planned to watch G.I. Joe with mirul...but he went with his friends instead..i'm not mad at him.i'm not mad at my dad..

i know he did this to protect me..

this year,i think i set a record of being admitted to hospital..normally,i'll get admitted once a year...

this year, i've already been admitted 4 times i think..now that's kind of disturbing..haha

it's not that i enjoy being in a hospital..being admitted i mean..i hate to trouble everyone else...

to come and visit or to come and stay with me or keep me company..i hate interupting their plans..

that's why usually,when i'm admitted to the hospital,i prefer to stay alone..

i asked my mom not to trouble herself to watch me at hospital..she may come if she want..but i'm not forcing her to take care of me..

as for my sister,all of them the same..i dont want to trouble them..so,i'll let them come whenever they want..

actually,being in a hospital is quite boring but also calmful..relaxing...

i get to spend time with myself...it's a rare oppurtunity for me..haha

anyway,that's all i'm babbling for today...write again later!

hey xera!

hey xera!!

sowie for the late wish...HAPPY 19TH BDAY TO U!!

Hope u are and will always be bless by Allah..

Hope u had a wonderful and joyous life..

Hope our friendship will be there forever for us..

Hope u had the best in every thing in your life..

Hope u had a hea;thy, wealthy and wonderful life..

Happy Birthday,xera!!

Later when we get back to college we'll celebrate ok??

be thankful for your health!

in these past few months, i had a couple series of fainting, vomits and headaches..

i've went through medical check up and found out i have a lesion at my pituitary gland..

as u all knew,it's the most important gland in our body becuase it's controls the master hormones..

usually,before this,i'm not really concerned..i mean,the doctor said the chances of it's getting worse in 1 in a thousand..

i'm that 1 in the thousand.

last week, i fainted in front of the library..i had seizures..thank goodness,my boyfriend was there with me at that time..

i was brought to the Seremban Specialist and check up there. my spasm still hasn't stopped. my right leg and hand can't stop moving,involuntarily.not until 3 days later.

around 9 pm, my mom came and take me back to be admitted to gleneagles, kl.

the doctor says,my condition is getting worse..i have the risk of getiing sick or faint anytime,anywhere..

i can't walk stabily anymore..my family aren't advising me to drive anywhere..

to do all these,i need help and support..

i'm thankful that till now,amirul is always there for me..

helping me and driving me here and there..

and my friends,giving me support from behind..

recently,my classmates had the symptoms of H1N1..

i asked mirul to accompany me nilai..to check on my friends..7 of them were having high fever..and yet the college didn't do anything..i brought along masks and gloves..i only had half an hour to spend with them,because i'm going back to kl..

my mom wont let me stay there..in case i too,get infected..

i did all i can..and said my goodbyes..i didnt know when will i able to see them again..

my doctor says i'm not fit to continue my studies..and even if i did graduate,by miracle,i wont be able to work..i'm losing my ability slowly..my coordination is worsening day by day..

i pray that all my friends can be healthy and are able to achieve thier dreams..

in this moment,i realise, how important health is to us..

now,i just wish i can be healthy like them..free like them..

i have many dreams and goals that i want to succeed..i want to be able to help people heal..

i want to travel around the world,see places..

i want to spend time with my boyfriend,with my friends..

i want to celebrate occasions,goes to movies..

now,i dont know if i can ever do that..i miss being with my friends..

i miss walking freely,jumping happily with others..

i miss it..

to you guys out there,appreciate your health..take good care of it..

i promise i will live my life to the fullest..

and i want all of you to do that to..

mirul,naz,nad,dada,lya,farah,xera,aya,ayie,sue,jue,aiza,nana,dila,biha,zela,ain,fatin,kak ina,elfi,abah,man,dki,ng,kuchai....and so many others...

live ur life..ok?

Happy Bday, Amirul Aizad!!!

hey, syg!

Happy 19th bday!!!sorry this post is a bit late..internet connection breakdown..huhu..

anyway,happy 19th birthday!!sorry i can't be there with u to celebrate..but i'll make it up to u when i get back to college, okay??hehe

hope u'll be bless by Allah and have a good and full life..

and hope,i'll be there in your life, forever=)

Hey ivan!!

Hey Ivan! Happy Birthday! haha..this post especially for you..

hope u had a fulfilled with no regrets life.. and hope u soar through your studies with flying colours..

Paint your life with wonderful friends as ur colours.. and framed it in ur heart..

Live ur life as if ur life had just begun!!!Happy birthday again, ruen chong =p

here's a cake for you.haha.hope u have lots and lots of fun at Kuantan Specialist!

Muchmuchmuchmuch!!!!

I love my boyfriend so much!!!

Want to know why??? Because he gave me a new handphone. a brand new handphone!

A brand new Sony Ericsson W980i handphone!!!

seriously...i'm so lucky i got him!i can't believe he really,really bpught this for me...no one (family excluded) had ever done such thing for me...really...

Don't get me wrong..i dont love him just because he gave me a handphone..i love me for who he is!and for everything that he had done for me!

Amirul Aizad b Jamaludin....Thanx so muchmuchmuchmuchmuch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday!!

Happy Birthday sue!!!!
Today is sue's birthday...and today is also my niece birthday, Nadia!!

Happy Birthday to all and may you all have a wonderful and fulfilled life!!

dearest all

Dearest all,
i would like to ask a favor from all of you to pray for me sister.
She will be going through a CAPD operation this monday, to ease her dialysis process.
Her kidney failure condition had worsen and it's time for her to do dialysis once every two days..
i hope all of you could pray for her wellness..even if not 100 % of it..
at least enough for her to continue her life together with her husband and her daughter..
Please...every help that you gave, i can only repay with thousands of thanks...

Earth Hour 2009

Support Earth Hour!!
Switch off your lights for an hour to vote for earth against global warming..
Let's vote for our Earth and save our planet, people!!
Turn off your lights for an hour from 8.30 pm till9.30 pm local time...anywhere,wherever you are.
Vote for earth..if we didn't,who else would?
i'm voting...what about u?

till now...

I cant believe it...i'm ending my first year of studies..and entering my second year...
WOW!!hehe..it's just that...time seems to travel so fast...so many things happen that i didn't realize that time passes by..
first of all,i still can't believe i'm not in school anymore...i miss those blue-and-white uniforms..
second,i can't believe i'm a college student...let alone,a diploma candidate!
next,i can't believe i'm 19 years old!!!and yet there's still so much that i want to do!!
then,i'm very fortunate to get new friends..especially Amirul Aizad..and ivan,lya,syuda,nad,jue,aiza,naz,man...and so,so,so many more!
plus,i'm thankful that i still have my old bestfriends with me like azrina,pie and zhaf...also others...
as time passes by,memories are being made...
treasure the times we have together..because we can't turn 'em back..
nor can we replace the moments that caused us happiness,sadness and exhilarates us...the moments that brings us all together...

post-practical

finished my practical already..now on 1-week holiday...

but now,i miss the times when i worked at SSH last 2-weeks...

i met a lot of new people..especially kids...

i was assigned to work at the chest physio where we do the suction thingy to extract the mucus,phlegm and sputum in side our lungs...it is done by inserting a small tube down our nose or in our mouth...

most of the patients are small children age 1 month to 4 years..

sometimes when i see them do the suction,i pity them..FYI, they we're screaming out loud okay...

anyway,when i think again,it's for their own comfortability...so,i just went along with it...

on my first day of practical,i saw 1 boy who injured his knee while playing rugby...he underwent operation and had difficulty to move his left leg after that.i also saw 1 uncle,who haven't walk for about 7 years,his joints all tight and contractures..we tried to help straighten his arms and legs while he shout in pain...

after 2 weeks, the boy can already walk with crutches help,up and down the stairs and making good progress...the uncle is now able to move his hands on his own...and even able to stand with support..

these are the kind of reasons why i stick to being a physiotherapists...

because seeing these kind of people,knowing i can help them regain their movement and go through their daily live with ease..those kind f things made me happy...i like to think of how i can help others who are in need...

Now i'm in seremban.. doing my 2-week practical here..
Seremban Specialist Hospital is okay, i guess..
different from ampang puteri,anyway..
But i'm doing my practical at the same place where Mirul is doing his..so..
Seremban Specialist seems like an interesting place to be right now!haha
anyway,working is so tiring...so,so tiring!!
working ours is so long...but next week,work should be interesting.hehe
in fact,i think i can;t wait to go to work next week!haha
there's an innocence excuse for that matters=p
anyway, i hope i can learn new stuff here and meet new people..
wait..dont get me wrong...when i say new people,i meant new friends or patient for me get to know with...not the other type of "get to know"..haha

anyway, that's it for now...i'll write more later on...
till then....

gambateh!!!

cont : 19th bday!

so,here's the photos on my 19th bday celebration!

enjoy!

Birthday2!!

Today is my 19th birthday...yay me!!!haha...i'm old!!wakakaka...
anyway, had the greatest..i mean THE GREATEST birthday ever!!obviously beats out all my celebration for the past 18 years...hahaha..
My classmates surprised me with a delicious chocolate cake..but i didn't get to eat so much cause in the end, the cake became the ultimate supply for the cake war!haha..thanks to ivan for starting the war..Glad you also get a piece of the cake on your face.hehe.and now,come to think of it, you were also the one to start out the water hose war too!haha.glad you're also soaked up when we got back to college =)
Anyway, Mirul came last night at brought me to dinner! I'm happy that he came all the way from Seremban to celebrate my birthday with me...thanks also for the sweetest birthday present that you gave to me! I love the ring so much! =)

Anyway, all in all, i would like to thanks all my friends as listed below, for making me enjoy the 19th bday!!!!i love all of you!!!especially my boyfriend, of course!!!haha x)

-mirul
-ivan
-nudd
-aya
-ayie
-farah
-sue
-nana
- naz
-abah
-elfi
-kuchai
-jue
-xera
-zela
-dilah
-aiza
- and anyone else that was involved...
sorry if i lefted out your name...!!

*pictures will be posted later on*

in love!!

hello,hello!!

well,this blog was supposed to be published on the last 3 weeks...but due to some internet connection problem,it had to be postponed.hehe..anyway,you know the feeling when something that we always,always wanted before...and suddenly u finally,got it??exhilirating right?haha..that's how i feel...when he asked me to be his girlfriend!!

i mean...finally...i waited so long to hear those words being said by him,by that one particular person!haha...so many challenges occurs along the way...but i guess all the sacrifies and waiting was worth it...very, worth it...

i know,i know...don't get so work up on happily ever after and things like that...but i really like this guy...so,i'm trying my best to keep it together with him=)

the first two person that knows this good news was liya and syuda...my two bestfriend!

i shared many things with these two person...they are truly a great friend each..

but i'm glad and proud to say...i love my bestfriends!!all of them..

and among them...i love amirul aizad,my boyfriend!

finally...

yeah!!!common...shout with me...YEAH!!!
i'm finally stepping down from the vice-president thingy...now i can be an average student..who don't have to think about to much problems...actually,i dont have to think about anything anymore!!!haha...freedom of peace and mind...i've forgotten already about that=p
anyway,my best wishes and congrats to adilah and prabu...OUR new president and it's vice...
may u guys triumph in your time of rules...this is your time now...mine and ivan had long gone and passed=p
but if u need our help,we'll be there...always!!just,not on the front seat anymore...we're just a plain student!!haha=p
so fun!!!