be thankful for your health!

in these past few months, i had a couple series of fainting, vomits and headaches..

i've went through medical check up and found out i have a lesion at my pituitary gland..

as u all knew,it's the most important gland in our body becuase it's controls the master hormones..

usually,before this,i'm not really concerned..i mean,the doctor said the chances of it's getting worse in 1 in a thousand..

i'm that 1 in the thousand.

last week, i fainted in front of the library..i had seizures..thank goodness,my boyfriend was there with me at that time..

i was brought to the Seremban Specialist and check up there. my spasm still hasn't stopped. my right leg and hand can't stop moving,involuntarily.not until 3 days later.

around 9 pm, my mom came and take me back to be admitted to gleneagles, kl.

the doctor says,my condition is getting worse..i have the risk of getiing sick or faint anytime,anywhere..

i can't walk stabily anymore..my family aren't advising me to drive anywhere..

to do all these,i need help and support..

i'm thankful that till now,amirul is always there for me..

helping me and driving me here and there..

and my friends,giving me support from behind..

recently,my classmates had the symptoms of H1N1..

i asked mirul to accompany me nilai..to check on my friends..7 of them were having high fever..and yet the college didn't do anything..i brought along masks and gloves..i only had half an hour to spend with them,because i'm going back to kl..

my mom wont let me stay there..in case i too,get infected..

i did all i can..and said my goodbyes..i didnt know when will i able to see them again..

my doctor says i'm not fit to continue my studies..and even if i did graduate,by miracle,i wont be able to work..i'm losing my ability slowly..my coordination is worsening day by day..

i pray that all my friends can be healthy and are able to achieve thier dreams..

in this moment,i realise, how important health is to us..

now,i just wish i can be healthy like them..free like them..

i have many dreams and goals that i want to succeed..i want to be able to help people heal..

i want to travel around the world,see places..

i want to spend time with my boyfriend,with my friends..

i want to celebrate occasions,goes to movies..

now,i dont know if i can ever do that..i miss being with my friends..

i miss walking freely,jumping happily with others..

i miss it..

to you guys out there,appreciate your health..take good care of it..

i promise i will live my life to the fullest..

and i want all of you to do that to..

mirul,naz,nad,dada,lya,farah,xera,aya,ayie,sue,jue,aiza,nana,dila,biha,zela,ain,fatin,kak ina,elfi,abah,man,dki,ng,kuchai....and so many others...

live ur life..ok?