Sunday, October 4, 2009

feeling....idontknow?

i dont know..what certain peoples' problems are...
i dont know..what people think of me...
i dont know..if i can make it through this time in college..
i dont know..if i can hold back my anger to certain people..
i dont know..if i can be patience all the time..
i dont know..what the future may brings..
i dont know..if i can smile all day..
i dont know..if i can laugh all day..
i dont know..if i can stay this way..
i dont know..if i can tell everyone the real truth..
i dont know..how to face this world..alone..

there are many things that i dont know..that i'm not sure of..
but some of it i found out with the help of my friends..my family...
but most of it..i have to find out on my own..
how do i do that?but still have a smile on face, a laugh in my life...and a dream in my future?
how?how ?

how to tell people...to let go?
how to say..thank you in the most sincerest way?
how to say.... goodbye?

i dont like being an outcast..
i dont like being alone...
i dont like being left alone..
but sometimes...that helps prepare others when i wont be here any longer..
somehow...it helps me living without others...
is that how this is all supposed to be?supposed to end?

I DONT KNOW..