confused,mixed up....dream??

haven't been blogging for a long time..
been busy lately..

anyway, got some story to share.

first, i'm finishing my practical session at Tawakal Hospital for the second time.. I love working here..it's fun! haha.. Now i sounded like a workaholic..

Anyway, i'm having the time of my life with my best friends..

But always falling sick lately..

Viral fever, headache,faint,conjunctivitis,allergy reactions...

too much! i hate being sick..i know there's nothing i can to do change it..but i still hate it..

there's not much u can do when you're sick..

like right now..i'm on my medical leave for 3 days..and i have nothing to do..

however, i'm glad i'm alive and able to do so much things that some others can't do..

Secondly, i'm always confused with my self..i don't know what to be...i don't know how to behave..

i'm different with others as i'm with my family or on my own..

but i can never know how to be every part of me..

sometimes i think..maybe i will never be, who i was before..

maybe i don't know her anymore..maybe who i am today,ain't so far from yesterday..

can i ever find a way to be..every part of me?

but i know,my true friends,will always be by my side..no matter how i am..

because true friend,accept you as you are..

i like to dream..wonderful dreams..romantic dreams..like these words..to dream

"Do me a favor,

And tell me what you think about me

Paint a picture

Choose your colors extra wise

Especially what you put on my mind

Imagine what it be like to touch the sky,

Whoa, you got my head in the clouds

Whoa, you got me thinking out loud

The more you dream about me the more that I believe

That nothing’s ever out of reach

So dream, dream, dream

I breathe your visions

They pull me through the coldest of nights

They steer me towards that moment in time

When you show me what it means for you to be mine, yeah"

part of the words anyway..

u know what?life is full of dreams...that's where everything started..

and maybe,without a dream,i wont be where i am today...

but sometimes people told me,it's easier to just listen and follow your heart..and u'll be okay..

but sometimes,listening to ur heart, could break u apart..not knowing which way to follow..

and it's so confusing,complicated,frustrating and sometimes makes me angry with myself..

all these makes me more mixed up..and leaving me with more doubt..

everything i do,is making me more confused...

used to be easy..all i have to be was me..

everywhere i go, is somewhere that i dont know..

ouh i hate this feelings..please somebody help me...

hold me,tell me,everything gonna be okay..

please...somebody...