missed

This is my last week before i go to PNC College.. things are happening so fast..i felt like i've just started middle school yesterday and now,i'm going to college.. How fascinating time is..
i'm excited that i'm moving on...but i also feel scared,nervous and sad that i had to leave some of the stuff that i love...i'm sure going to miss my room,my family..miss baking cakes every saturday..miss the trips to KLCC everyday other day..i'm sure going to miss passing by a special home that i used to look..miss my nieces and nephews...my friends,i think a little bit...

But i know i'm going for a better future...and to learn to be independant..
i hope i'll get a good room mate=p

so,i'm still going to write in this blog..just,maybe not as frequent as i used to..heck,no one ever read this blog except me anyway,what do i care=)

the worlds..

nowdays,there's many things thats going on around the world...the global warming,the nature disasters...the wars.. the general elections everywhere...the controversianal Fitna film..the olympics together with Tibet-tians fight for independance..in Malaysia,in fact...the quarrel between politicians..the blaming-each-other things...the point-your-finger-to-them...but in the middle of these chaotic world,i felt nothing...i don't feel like i'm part of this world..in fact,as i looked through all the things thats been happening lately,i dont think i want to be part of the world...it's so depressing! no one seems to know about relaxing anymore...people just want to bite each others head and be grouchy all the time...the world is no longer the happy place i used to be introduced to...or maybe i'm no longer in that world...i'm in the world where even being nice is also wrong...being helpfull is more useless and to care about others is like asking for troubles yourself...But i guess it's time for me to learn to good and bad,the sugar and spice, the sweet and sour,and the ups and downs of living in the adults world...the REAL world...

i dont know what the future may brings...i could bring disaster for me or it could bring more challenges for me...it could also bring me back the world that used to be a better place...either one,i hope i can handle it and get through it by making the right decisions...i've made quite a number of wrong ones before ..but like people say,we'll learn through our mistakes...right?
i just hope mine would teach me on how to live my life better...without crossing other people and hurt others as well...

i tend to do what i think is best for others...but for that actions,i got myself in troubles..
i care about others, and that would ended me up by having enemies...
i kept quiet and do nothing..that would results me to live in a world full of hatred and anger..

what is happening to MY WORLD right now???