Pn mahani mahmood.. In memory..

My aunt, puan mahani mahmood. She's the bravest and strongest aunt i ever had. She battled with lung cancer for 1 year and 2 months, without any complain or sadness. She endured it with smiles, ensuring others that she's okay..

She never onced asked why is it that she, of all people got it. Cancer. She didn't smoke. She didn't do any hazardous activity. But she's a passive smoker. That contributed to her illness. I hate smokers. Aunt ni took her illness with positive vibe. She accepted it with all her heart. She knows there must be a reason why Allah gave this to her. And she stayed close to Allah.

Aunt ni was a teacher. She had taught me maths in my class before and she's my mathematics tutor. I became so good in maths , thanks to her. I remembered once when two of my classmates entered the class late 30 mins. She throwed them out of the class saying not to enter at all. All of is were shocked, numbed. Me, most of all. She said, "if you couldn't bother to come on time then don't come at all.".
Then there's this one occasion where she throws a marker pen from front to all the way back to the class. The student still remembers it till today.

She may be strict sometime, but she made mathematics fun. It doesn't matter if you didn't pass up your book. As long as you did the exercise, you can pass up anything that you did the exercises and homeworks on. Textbooks, papers, tissues.. You just have to show that you really did it.

She brought me to the tuition place where she taught other kids from other schools. She always picks me up and send me home. Never once that she left me.

I dedicate my A1 in mathematics for my SPM to my dearest aunt ni. Thank you for all that you had taught me.

Another thing i will always remember her by.. Was her marvelous and delicious mee kari! Not one that can eat her's.. None till today.. She made the best! Enough spice, enough flavour. I miss that.

When aunt ni was diagnosed, we were shocked. I saw her from time to time.. But later on, she grew weaker. She stayed at my house occasionally, my mother looked after her.. And she'll get better. Last year i could still visit her at her house during hari raya. Last month she was here with me.. One of her worst condition. I went out late at night to search for her an oxygen supply. I searched for her medicine high and low. I tried my best. We all thought that was it but, she went through. She became stronger and better, and she went home.

3 weeks later, mom said she was admitted due to dehydration. Next day, my cousin called and said her condition had become worst. The doctor already called for relatives to gather, pay their last respect. She went to the worst condition, but came back better than before her cancer. When i saw her, i didn't know if she recognize me. But i recognize her. With the same grin, the same smile, i recognise my aunt. We went home. But all of us knew that she won't be long.

Next day, 2/2/2012, at 4.50 am. Pn mahani mahmood, passed away due to internal bleeding and lung cancer stage 4. Her funeral was short and simple yet so many came to pay their last respect to once a wonderful lady, a good friend, a dedicated teacher, a cheerful sibling, the coolest aunt, and a strong and brave cancer fighter. She was my aunt, the late puan mahani mahmood.