1) i'm finally finishing my practical at Ampang Puteri after 2-fullofhell-months there..
seriously, i won't be bothered coming back.. it's damn full wtih stress and egoistic people who think they are better than everyone in the world but when it comes to their job, they only sat around lazily at the pantry,watching movies,sleeping (don't even bother to cover their snores) while easily use the students as slaves..easy solution because the students aren't paid..they are getting the easy money (yet they aren't thankful enough)..we,students,can't really say anything because our marks are in their hands..at the end of practical,THEY expect US to say thank you for everything,every knowledge they've thought us,every opportunity they've given us...but THEY wont say thank you to US for helping them,or in other words,DID ALL THEIR WORK FOR THEM! one knowledge i learnt here, NEVER EVER EVER be like them.
2)Mirul's lost his father recently..on 23rd march 2010.. due to Acute Coronary Syndrome..or heart attack..that is a turning point for my life...i realized we can go at anytime, anywhere.. and i'm scared...i tried to be there for him as much as i can..i brought him to nilai to ask permission for changing his clinical placement so that he can be nearer to his mother, i accompanied him to ipoh to gather all his stuff from the hostel there..i tried to be there for his mother as well...but i somehow still feels guilty to his late father, to his mother...to him...
because there are just too much time that he spent with me..that he can, could spend with his family...with his father..now, i vow not to take his time with his mother..let him spend all the time with his mother...seeing him so vulnerable,so fragile, makes me sad..terribly sad...and i can't go on with my live, have fun like i used to, because i know that he is sad...i can't have fun when he is sad..because i can only smile, be happy when i can share everything in this world with him... and i can't just do that now...i need time..i need time and he needs space..i know he's going to be different...i mean,he's the head of the family now..so he needs to learn to be a man..be responsible for his family..and i can't stop him..i need to support him..and he told me he can't reply messages as he used too..can't spend all the time in the world for only me now..i knew that...so if anything,he says, just call...his uncle told him to marry quickly, find someone not by the looks but by the heart..who loves him and loves his mother..he hesitate then he looked at me..my reaction?
a)why did he hesitate?is he having his doubt on his relationship with me?
b)shit! i'm not ready yet...too early!
but it's more to a...i mean..i love him so much..i have proven my love to him since 7/1/2009
and i love his mother dearly..so i dont know why he hesitate...i'm kind of worried before...i'm still worried now...it's like...he can break up at any moment with me...and i don't want that...
3)My wisdom tooth, the very, dearly,troublesome tooth at the back, is giving me trouble..so i had them took out today..30th march 2010..yes,THEM..there are two of them,1 on the upper jaw,1 on the lower jaw..and the bleeding still haven't stop..they had to bius me 3 times..so i become numb..then they use a tool like the screwdriver or ice-breaker or something and dig out my lower tooth first..it's painful although i'm numb.. then they took the spanar or whatever they call it,the one you used to open the sink drainage, and they try to pull out my tooth..but i went back in so they had to dig again and pull out again..same goes on the upper ones...CRAZY isn't it?
then they had to stitched back my gum that was torn during the process and i had to come back next week to take the stitches out..warrrgghh!!!!!
the glorious wisdom teeth..
told you soooo many things happened this months..
