Creampuffs!!

It's been soooo long since the last time i did pastry with my sis....

Today, we did cream puff which is "sedap giler" okay!!!haha..

Actually, my sis was the one who makes it..i was the one who "supervise"..wakakaka

i was the tester, easily put.hehe..that's my favourite job!

anyway, this is how the process and the delicious cream puff looks like.

~ This is it before entering the OVEN ~

~ TADA!!! Transformed after exiting the oven ~

~ This is where they "lined up" before being baked ~

~ Hooray!! survived the heat as a team! ~

~ This is my creation! Haha. My sis was the round one.. ~

L.O.V.E

love hurts...so much...
it's either hurts you, or makes you hurts people..
that's why i'm not really a fan of love..

sometimes love takes you higher than the sky...
and sometimes it brings you lower than hell..

love makes us happy,makes us smile and laugh gaily..
love makes us cry for joy and happiness..also in sadness and sorrow...
love teaches us to share, to care...
it teaches us to dare, to dream...

love opens oppurtunities for us...
shows us the high and low, the up and down in life..

so why is it,that all of us are longing for love?
longing for this one specific particular feeling?
is it because we want to be love?
or we want to give love?

i also dont know which one is it...
because i'm afraid of love..
it hurt me onced...and made me hurt other people a lot of times already...

I dont hate love....i just have no reason to like it...

which one...

People say,we know when the time comes..
when enough is simply enough..
when to stop what we're doing..
when to give up..and follow the flow..
when to walk away from the game..
when to simply stop,give up,walk away...and let go...

but how do we really know,that's it's the right step..that's it's the right time

i've been searching for the signs..the right moment to stop..to give up and let go...
but i know i can't...somehow,i can't..because each time i felt like leaving,there's always something else that makes me wants to keep holding on...always..

but at certain times...when i realized the real,full truth in front of me,when i know i'm living in a world full of reality and not fantasy..i can't help but feeling i had enough...i suffered enough...my heart suffered enough...

but each time i think of leaving,of letting go...of forgetting you..
yoiu always did something that makes me forget about saying goodbye...you always did things that convinced me,leaving you is the wrong decision...that now is not the right time...that i still want a lot more with you...

but when i'm by myself...alone with my thoughts...i pity my heart...because it keeps on breaking everytime i think about you and her..and my tears will keep on coming for you...whether happy tears,or sad tears...but your actions..your words..the way you treat me..tells me that i shouldn't stop...shouldn't give up...tells me that i shouldn't let go..because if i did..i'll be letting go of you,of our memories..of everything we did all these while...if i let you go,i'll be saying goodbye to one of the most memorable thing that happened in my life...

right now..i'm confused...if i let go,i'll regret it everyday..for the rest of my life...
but if i don't..i have to prepare myself,my heart and my life...for two seperate ways..
either i'll find happiness and happy memories with you later on...
or..i'll be breaking my heart so bad that it'll be beyond repair...and lives in halucination and old memories...

both decision...i dare not make right now...