Stupid actions

I just want to post this to anyone who might be reading my blog, not that anyone ever read it. But i still jut want to post this up.

One of the stupidest thing i've ever seen anyone doing online is that of writing or rambling on and on about a person whom they had just had a fight with or break up with. They just need the whole world to know that the other half is an idiot or something and that they are mad and horribly upset. So, they shared it to the world. Everyone tried to act sympathetic, helps in bashing or commenting the post by agreeing and insulting the other half, to make their "BFF" feels better.
Whose to know that by the next 3 months, that couple are back again together and happily in love again, acting like their stupid argument has never happened before.. And all the surrounding people acts happy for both of them, supporting, congratulating and wishing them years and years of happiness.. Forgetting that they once insult, gossiped and bad mouth these people before.

And the couple, they are the stupidest of all. They shared all their hatred, and they share their happiness. They just couldn't help but wanted to share EVERYTHING on the virtual world. They didn't think before they share. Didn't think that 1 day, they could be together with the person that they are thrashing now, with their friends. And no matter if they are together or not, everybody knows all the thing about the other half. The good AND the bad. How ironic. The person thatyou trashed about, with your friends. That's the person later on you fell in love and cannot live even a second without it. And when your friends reminded you of all the stories that you once told them, you'll get all sensitive and upset thinking everyone wants to sabotage your happiness. How stupid.

Even stupider, when you break a friendship with once your BFF. Over a person you once hate for what he did. You breakloose yourself because your ex-bff was not on your team of sympathisers. And suddenly one day, you came back to the guy, all happy and content. But your ex-bff is just another old story. Nothing change. And that's how much you value your friendship.

I guess i never understand much about friendship. Not even in the schooldays. It too much a complicated bond for me to handle. And all that i ever had was just a fake bond, where everything go bust once you no longer see them everyday. No one tells me anything anymore. I just knew it either from other peoples' mouth or the social media. And that's how much my friendship's worth. To everyone. How good was that to know. And i'm being said the bad one. Because i didn't take part. I didn't asked. I didn't tell. I didn't care. Oh what the hell, the only reason these are not on my social status is because i value too much for my family name to make a fool of myself. But if i didn't think so much of that, i would have posted these toneach and everyone of you fakers' walls. You didn't gave a damn when you posted about me. Why should i be any less kinder?

Friendship is not what it is as it used to be. If anyone of who happened to read this post and thinks i'm wrong, then correct me please. I wouldn't mind taking a hit for the right reason. But trust me, you guys shared to much out there, you just don't value your privacy any much anymore.

Only stupid people do stupid actions.

Ahah! Modern technologies!

Sometimes, modern technologies kept me at an awe position with it's marvelous possibilities in our life. Okay, most of the time. But seriously, imagine living our life without these little techs, i sometimes how we even manage to go through our lives before these devices were even created! Thanks to the new revolution, i can now blog through my iphone:)

Updates

Well, First thing first, I finished my diploma and passed my exams.. Alhamdulillah..

Now, i'm working part time at my family office in titiwangsa, KL, while also doing part time locum at Tawakkal Hospital.

I'm going to start working officially on 2nd May 2011.. Give me 2 - months break before i devoted my next 2 years in working 5 and a half day a week =)

I'm also currently undergoing Emergency Medical Training (EMT) course during these two months with my office colleagues, just for extra knowledge and cert =D

I'm also in plan of going to Australia early April for a 10-day holiday there so hopefully i'll enjoy while there's still time. I just love the scenery =)

Oh- My- Farewell- Partay!!

Our farewell party was quite the havoc!

it's a chance for all of us to dress up, drop the hassle and party our heart out!

Our farewell dinner was organized by our dearly junior cohort 8 at the Allson Kelana Hotel hear at Nilai.. the venue was suitable for our number and very convenient. For this occasion i spent more than 2 hours at the saloon to get myself wonderful and beatify =)

i went with my bff and the saloon made us both look FAB!

well, i can say mission accomplished for that night as i get what i want, the "Best Dress" award!

yay me! haha

here's some pixcies for sharing =)

After a while..

After quite sometime.. i'm not sure how long, i'm finally updating my blog. phew!

Well, for one thing, i'm no more a teenager, but i'm not gonna change my blog's name to adolescences mind now am i? haha

i'm 21 for that matters.. to say that my 20th birthday sucks, my 21st is much better =D

my friends celebrated my 21st in a big bang! with flours all over. haha. interesting.

still waiting for my family celebration when all of us are gathered together..

got plenty of chocolates this year! and 1 "mata besar" doll =)

pictures will come up later..

anyway, i'm finishing my 3-years diploma of physiotherapy.. 3-years have gone by just like that..

my last practical session was at my sponsored hospital, KPJ Tawakkal.. i went there before and this time i went for 3 months.. i started to familiarize with my working surrounding.. my soon-to-be colleagues.. i'm just not sure i'm ready yet. phew *nervous*

anyway, lots have gone by.. still wishing i'm still a teenager, actually, a schoolgirl, but i know it's time to a grow up =)

Too much in 1 month!

Too much is happening in 1 month...

1) i'm finally finishing my practical at Ampang Puteri after 2-fullofhell-months there..

seriously, i won't be bothered coming back.. it's damn full wtih stress and egoistic people who think they are better than everyone in the world but when it comes to their job, they only sat around lazily at the pantry,watching movies,sleeping (don't even bother to cover their snores) while easily use the students as slaves..easy solution because the students aren't paid..they are getting the easy money (yet they aren't thankful enough)..we,students,can't really say anything because our marks are in their hands..at the end of practical,THEY expect US to say thank you for everything,every knowledge they've thought us,every opportunity they've given us...but THEY wont say thank you to US for helping them,or in other words,DID ALL THEIR WORK FOR THEM! one knowledge i learnt here, NEVER EVER EVER be like them.

2)Mirul's lost his father recently..on 23rd march 2010.. due to Acute Coronary Syndrome..or heart attack..that is a turning point for my life...i realized we can go at anytime, anywhere.. and i'm scared...i tried to be there for him as much as i can..i brought him to nilai to ask permission for changing his clinical placement so that he can be nearer to his mother, i accompanied him to ipoh to gather all his stuff from the hostel there..i tried to be there for his mother as well...but i somehow still feels guilty to his late father, to his mother...to him...

because there are just too much time that he spent with me..that he can, could spend with his family...with his father..now, i vow not to take his time with his mother..let him spend all the time with his mother...seeing him so vulnerable,so fragile, makes me sad..terribly sad...and i can't go on with my live, have fun like i used to, because i know that he is sad...i can't have fun when he is sad..because i can only smile, be happy when i can share everything in this world with him... and i can't just do that now...i need time..i need time and he needs space..i know he's going to be different...i mean,he's the head of the family now..so he needs to learn to be a man..be responsible for his family..and i can't stop him..i need to support him..and he told me he can't reply messages as he used too..can't spend all the time in the world for only me now..i knew that...so if anything,he says, just call...his uncle told him to marry quickly, find someone not by the looks but by the heart..who loves him and loves his mother..he hesitate then he looked at me..my reaction?

a)why did he hesitate?is he having his doubt on his relationship with me?

b)shit! i'm not ready yet...too early!

but it's more to a...i mean..i love him so much..i have proven my love to him since 7/1/2009

and i love his mother dearly..so i dont know why he hesitate...i'm kind of worried before...i'm still worried now...it's like...he can break up at any moment with me...and i don't want that...

3)My wisdom tooth, the very, dearly,troublesome tooth at the back, is giving me trouble..so i had them took out today..30th march 2010..yes,THEM..there are two of them,1 on the upper jaw,1 on the lower jaw..and the bleeding still haven't stop..they had to bius me 3 times..so i become numb..then they use a tool like the screwdriver or ice-breaker or something and dig out my lower tooth first..it's painful although i'm numb.. then they took the spanar or whatever they call it,the one you used to open the sink drainage, and they try to pull out my tooth..but i went back in so they had to dig again and pull out again..same goes on the upper ones...CRAZY isn't it?

then they had to stitched back my gum that was torn during the process and i had to come back next week to take the stitches out..warrrgghh!!!!!

the glorious wisdom teeth..

told you soooo many things happened this months..

20 sucks!

u know..

this year's birthday...sucks

i know i made a resolution to make this year an extraordinary year..

to find or do extraordinary things..

so far, i went to Boys Likes Girls concert for the nokia x6 launch at damansara..

next i went to an autoshow which i never what it's about in shah alam...

then i played futsal which i never ever dreamed of wanting to play it...

but for my birthday, it sucks...

my boyfriends forgets it because he was too busy with exams and stuff...

my family forgets it because they're too busy..

my bestfriends forgets it because they're too busy with their life...

and when he promised to make it up to me, bang goes another problem where his family is going on vacation until next tuesday...which makes the celebration just a dream...

told ya this year sucks.

i'm not hoping for anything next year..

i hate being hurt again.