20 sucks!

u know..

this year's birthday...sucks

i know i made a resolution to make this year an extraordinary year..

to find or do extraordinary things..

so far, i went to Boys Likes Girls concert for the nokia x6 launch at damansara..

next i went to an autoshow which i never what it's about in shah alam...

then i played futsal which i never ever dreamed of wanting to play it...

but for my birthday, it sucks...

my boyfriends forgets it because he was too busy with exams and stuff...

my family forgets it because they're too busy..

my bestfriends forgets it because they're too busy with their life...

and when he promised to make it up to me, bang goes another problem where his family is going on vacation until next tuesday...which makes the celebration just a dream...

told ya this year sucks.

i'm not hoping for anything next year..

i hate being hurt again.

Truth , Lies and Consequences...

You know how u think u know the person well enough.. But then one day u found out the real truth that everything was actually a lie..and u have to bear over the consequences?

I hate that feeling.

I hate him.

Happy New Year , 2010 !!

Happy new year to everyone!

Happy 2010... This year i'm turning 20 years old.... SCARY!!

anyways, new year supposed to be coming with new year resolutions..

Last year resolutions was to get a sponsorship, to get a car, to acquire a serious relationship...

All target achieved i can say! haha..

This year, my resolutions are to study hard and maintain my sponsorship and results, to maintain my relationship without breaking up... to travel more...and learn more...to open my eyes and see new things...and discover something extraordinary this year!

Hope it can be achieved just like last year =)

Keyra Mansor

Eyh2!!!

my sis is opening a bussiness with her friends...

it's a bridal boutique together with catering and all that jazz.

check it out!

www.keyramansor.com

i like this one..but i like that one too?

I like this...thing...but i also like the other thing...confusing?

ok..for easier way to translate..

i like my sony w980..but i've always like my nokia's 5300..

i like both of them very much...but i can't use both everytime...

i want to let go of my nokia...but i don't have the courage...it have always been a good friend to me...

but i also like my sony...it gave so much to me...anything and everything that i ever wanted..for a phone..i mean,it gave a lot better than my nokia...but somehow..i always like my nokia..

what should i do??

i can't have them both at the same time!it's not....acceptable...

but i cant let go of my sony...nor can i forget about my nokia...

hurm...i'm confused...i reaaaaallllllyyyy dont know what i should do..

how??

p/s..in real life..it's not really about the phone..

confused,mixed up....dream??

haven't been blogging for a long time..
been busy lately..

anyway, got some story to share.

first, i'm finishing my practical session at Tawakal Hospital for the second time.. I love working here..it's fun! haha.. Now i sounded like a workaholic..

Anyway, i'm having the time of my life with my best friends..

But always falling sick lately..

Viral fever, headache,faint,conjunctivitis,allergy reactions...

too much! i hate being sick..i know there's nothing i can to do change it..but i still hate it..

there's not much u can do when you're sick..

like right now..i'm on my medical leave for 3 days..and i have nothing to do..

however, i'm glad i'm alive and able to do so much things that some others can't do..

Secondly, i'm always confused with my self..i don't know what to be...i don't know how to behave..

i'm different with others as i'm with my family or on my own..

but i can never know how to be every part of me..

sometimes i think..maybe i will never be, who i was before..

maybe i don't know her anymore..maybe who i am today,ain't so far from yesterday..

can i ever find a way to be..every part of me?

but i know,my true friends,will always be by my side..no matter how i am..

because true friend,accept you as you are..

i like to dream..wonderful dreams..romantic dreams..like these words..to dream

"Do me a favor,

And tell me what you think about me

Paint a picture

Choose your colors extra wise

Especially what you put on my mind

Imagine what it be like to touch the sky,

Whoa, you got my head in the clouds

Whoa, you got me thinking out loud

The more you dream about me the more that I believe

That nothing’s ever out of reach

So dream, dream, dream

I breathe your visions

They pull me through the coldest of nights

They steer me towards that moment in time

When you show me what it means for you to be mine, yeah"

part of the words anyway..

u know what?life is full of dreams...that's where everything started..

and maybe,without a dream,i wont be where i am today...

but sometimes people told me,it's easier to just listen and follow your heart..and u'll be okay..

but sometimes,listening to ur heart, could break u apart..not knowing which way to follow..

and it's so confusing,complicated,frustrating and sometimes makes me angry with myself..

all these makes me more mixed up..and leaving me with more doubt..

everything i do,is making me more confused...

used to be easy..all i have to be was me..

everywhere i go, is somewhere that i dont know..

ouh i hate this feelings..please somebody help me...

hold me,tell me,everything gonna be okay..

please...somebody...

feeling....idontknow?

i dont know..what certain peoples' problems are...

i dont know..what people think of me...

i dont know..if i can make it through this time in college..

i dont know..if i can hold back my anger to certain people..

i dont know..if i can be patience all the time..

i dont know..what the future may brings..

i dont know..if i can smile all day..

i dont know..if i can laugh all day..

i dont know..if i can stay this way..

i dont know..if i can tell everyone the real truth..

i dont know..how to face this world..alone..

there are many things that i dont know..that i'm not sure of..

but some of it i found out with the help of my friends..my family...

but most of it..i have to find out on my own..

how do i do that?but still have a smile on face, a laugh in my life...and a dream in my future?

how?how ?

how to tell people...to let go?

how to say..thank you in the most sincerest way?

how to say.... goodbye?

i dont like being an outcast..

i dont like being alone...

i dont like being left alone..

but sometimes...that helps prepare others when i wont be here any longer..

somehow...it helps me living without others...

is that how this is all supposed to be?supposed to end?

I DONT KNOW..